Anchor me home...

Still no news on the spot... And my zen is going away... It is actually welling up in my chest and pushing up through my throat and out of my face in the form of tears... Big ones, big sad longing tears. Back to the love story analogy: It is like the boy you are crushed to pieces over hasn't called you in weeks and you just know in your guts that he isn't into you. But you can't figure out why. You thought it was a perfect fit and now you love him even more... While he probably moved on the minute that first and only date ended. I am feeling completely crushed here people... Over the not knowing... Over having to potentially give up the dream spot if I am to move forward in any kind of reasonable time frame. I just want it all to fall right together please! I can not wait to be in it! Inside that magic little cart, in her perfect little home, doing hair in the cozy glow, while laughing with client-friends, meeting new ones, and inviting them in to share the warmth... It is pretty agonizing to have to wait and see just how it is all going to unfold...

BUT! There is a little light a-twinklin'... Yonder at the tunnel's end.(please note that is not how I really speak) The trailer is not completely done yet so there is still time. On Monday it is going to make it's first voyage out into the world as the rolling styling cart. She'll be off to get her guts all done up. A trip to the electrician and plumber to be made whole!!! So sometime after next week she should seriously be ready to go!!! This is very exciting news in case you didn't know that already! So there is that to put a sparkle in my smile. And along those lines, I have said it before, I am taking the field of dreams approach... That is to say I am going with a, "If You Build It, They Will Come" modo... But mine is more like, If I build her, her home will be waiting when she is done! So for now that is my plan!

Lot Of Dreams!